The better part of me ,

have you ever felt like sleeping and never waking up ?
my heart skip too many beats yesterday night and today .
it was as sour as a lemon and can be easily squeezed out anytime , anywhere .
break easily like how fragile a glass was .
this was the worst feeling of my whole life .
something's that's unbearable . have you ever felt ,
like you've crushed someone you loved very dearly , close to your heart ,
till their deathbed ? yes that's my family , so many god damn bloody conflicts .
if you've never , then you dont know how i feel and dont bother trying to comfort me .
CAUSE EVERYTHING WONT BE ALRIGHT .
please kindly skip this post if you are bored , i'm just finding someone or at least somewhere ,
to rant my feelings . I PUT ALL THE BLAME ON ME .
'to someone , if you still read my blog then good . cause i just wanna tell you that i meant everything i said and everything i did . if you dont believe me then fine , by all means .
think the way you think , but i guess you dont know the inside story . and , SORRY .

goodbye 2008 , hello angel of death .
i dont wish for no 2009 .